Hi! Welcome to my journey. I'm not sure how you found me, but you are welcome to come along.
My name is not important. I could be your friend, your neighbor, your mom, you're friend's mom or just the stranger sitting on the bus. I am every woman you have ever met who has struggled with something in their life. My story is unique to me and yet universal to all of us - everyone has their struggles in this life. I'm here to write about mine, but they don't belong to just me. I may sound like the voice of someone you know or I may echo the words that bounce around in your own head. So please read ahead with kindness and empathy as I share my journey.
My greatest struggle in this life has been my weight. I have had others too, but this is the big one that I am going to share here. I have struggled with my weight since the first grade when the boys would tease me that my baby doll dresses made me look "pregnant". It's been a lifelong love-hate relationship with the scale and food and this year I am going to change that.
I have been successful before. I know what needs to be done. But life gets so tangled so easily and everything gets in the way - work, kids, family.... Our culture does not foster health, it fosters the need for immediate gratification. I can not tell you how many times I have made poor decisions in the name of solving something RIGHT NOW! I excuse my actions with stress but then continue to allow myself to make the same poor choices because it works for that moment. But no more. I have allowed these poor choices to rule my life and I find myself now, at the old age of 40, at the highest weight of my life. This includes when I was pregnant with my children! My body aches so much more than a 40 year old should. I have trouble walking, my back always hurts, and I am decending into old age long before my time. It is time for me to learn the art of patience and teach it to my children by example. So my journey begins today.
For the remainder of this year I will be using Weight Watchers to guide me towards healthier eating. I know it works - really any diet you try will work IF you stick to it. That's usually where I fail - I think "one cheat day won't hurt" and then a week later I'm munching a Big Mac for lunch and wondering how I fell off the wagon. I need to also stop focusing on how much better I could look/feel in a year (which make a painful fall off the wagon hurt even more when I don't reach that goal) and focus on today. Just today. I need to make choices for just today. If I fail, it is for a moment and immediatly go back to where I started. Here. Right here, choosing to make the decision to be healthier one day at a time.
Day 1. Starting weight: 300 lbs.
